Trying to be strong ❤

Have you all ever cried to make yourself to sleep ? I did that often . Have you all felt lonely even when people still lingers around you? I do feel that at this moment. Soon I'm leaving Singapore , this also means that I won't be able to meet with my baby for 6 days . Can't celebrate his birthday and can't spent VALENTINE's day together . That wasn't as important.
What matter th most was we cant meet . And I miss himmmm I don't cry , I don't show but who doesn't miss their love one when they are apart ? I keep putting a strong front . But I really miss him )'; but I know I need to leave. Let's just get through all that , and be back quickly (':

Let's move to another topic . At this moment , I feel really upset )": and I could turned to no one to talk to ..
Have you guys feel lonely even when you know there are people who are around you ? Let me tell you , I do feel that when at home . Yes , I feel lonely all night )'; which child doesn't want their parents to show more love and care towards their.child ? Not surprisingly, I want that too ! (currently tears rolling down my cheeks ) I really feel upset :/
I've been trying my best to make them happy .. But why I just feel that they don't realized ? I'm already 18 , I also want to go around to have fun . But I chose to help my parents at work . It's tough and tiring but I don't mind . I wonder whether they realized and see all this . I really wished my parents love me as much as they love my sist )"; she doesn't need to do anything and everybody love her . Forgive her . Me ? It's been two night ., I was alone .. Yesterday aft going amway event, got home around 12 plus . Aft ate dinner , it's already 1 plus . Then because my mum was tired and I packed to thing for her till 3plus 4am . Today woke up late , and get shouted . I'm tired too . I'm working too ); why no body see it ?
Today I got home at 12 plus too , aft chat with Boyf i Went out to living room going to bath but everyone was asleep . I feel really lonely );
My sist just go out all day long . Since 10 plus to night 10 plus 11 plus or 12am . Every night without fail. I just went work for late because I'm tired that all , no one appreciate it or see it . Lesser time with boyfriend but we don't say anything ); why is it so unfair ? )":

I'M REALLY HEART BROKEN )":