' Misunderstanding

Dear no one, Blogging seems so outdated but I find it the best place to speak out. This is where I always turn to when I want to speak out my heartfelts. Its been years being together with him, however for some reasons.. I felt that we drifted so much compared to when we first met. Many things seems even tougher, even difficult, even complicated, even messy, even impossible. It true that we meet often, but just that something is missing. The fun, the laughters, the understanding and slowly the love that we once had. We are looking at a different point in life. What I expect stays as what I expect for and what I've got are just what the truth is. Love isn't a fairy tales. Love isn't perfect as it seems to be. Whatever I did, he don't seems to understand. I felt more empty. He is different from what I first knew. Everything change including you and me. I felt that I was just an extra someone, and not a part of him or even someone who completes him. Its been a bad start of my poly year 2 first semester. Even though timetable are pretty fantastic, but school isn't what I looking forward for as compared to the first time. I used to like going to school till this semester start. New classmates, new arrangement, new modules and new special characteristics from classmates. Going through everything by myself, doesn't feel good either. When I needed you, you wasn't here/there for me. I know its tough for you but its tough for me too. Whatever I do , you don't see the good in it. I just wish you see me special. How I wish I was special to you. To be honest, you have changed so much that I don't really know you. You made me felt so worthless for you. I hate crying alone. I hate the fact that I tear so much for you and yet you don't know. I hate the fact that you didn't do things that I should deserved. You cared so much for other's feelings but not mine. I feel so far away from you. Is this even LOVE ANYMORE ? I really don't know. Is this a right choice? I really not sure either..

3 years passed

3 years had passed. Things are moving very quickly. I've turned 20, more things to start thinking about. more things to worry more, time to get real serious. We have come this far , we should start planning our future which is just ahead of us. We came to realised that not everything can use money to buy but no money also cant get you everything. For us we are lack of finance to start a family. Everything cost a bomb to us . House, engagement,marriage, start a family and everything. Its really a headache . I understand he is young but i really have no idea how are we going to manage. I really hope everything will be better. We have come this far we wont let anything to defeat us. We basically need to be more hardworking and save more.

Insya'allah .

Teamwork

What is teamwork afterall?
I dont know wwhere to start .. but what i know is just that i feel i have no power even im the President of the club .
I mean my presence is not even visible to them . Yes i know i may not be the best best president of the club ever . But i did my best as a leader . I used to abandon the fact that im the president and everyone should listen to . Yes things turn out like this . Another 6 months llus for this tolerance . I feel like an idiot . Why bother to care for those ppl ? But i really dont know how to . My friends always say that im too easy to bully . Then must i be a bitch and scold them ? We are already soon to be young adults . I believe that they should be more liable and smart . I really dont know what can i do .. today is our first day booth . I can say i have no interest at all . Maybe ... i will just float around the school ..

Its sad that no one actually appreciate what you want to do for the club ...

Imperfection

Hey hihi ! Been damn busy till forget to update blog. When im down , blog is the only thing came to my mind .

Been quarreling this few days. Really sucks .. sigh !

I dont know where to start with . Endless complications , endless misunderstanding. All i could say we hardly bond together now though everyday we see each other . Its true its never gonna be the same. I really wish everything start anew like it used to be . But if things were so easy , i guess everyone is free from problems. I know my imperfection cause much much misery between us . I tried .. i tried be a better girl but i really have no idea how to be . Sometime i just wonder am i expecting too much from him . I mean i felt insecure most of the time . I felt that i was the man . I want to be your princess . I miss the past us . I misss all the laughters we had. I miss the time when we were like best best friend where we share all our probs, soul mate where we make our life so differently, partners like we were a team ,lovers where our heart beat together and some one who we cant live without each other . I mean... yes we are still the same but we were drifting.
It takes 2 hands to clap. Im doing my part and you should do your part too . Relationship need many many surprises to make sure the sparks keep on. Being together werent easy as we need sacrifices much for one and another .
Sometime i feel really sad . Cause when i needed you , you werent there . And now im filled with many problems . I couldnt breathe .. i wish everything become better . Just like how we used to be .. ♡

1 more week before she go Thailand

I know that this is bad news for me. 1 more week, she's leaving Singapore to Thailand. She go there for 2 week(17 days). I hope that 2 week past very fast.. I will feel lonely after she left Singapore. I didn't know what to do without her. I confirm miss the time we had together. I will miss your love, hug, kisses and etc.. Time flies so fast..

To my beloved wiffey,
I hope that you will takecare yourself there. Remember on what I've said to you everything.
Baby, let's be patience together okay? I will wait for you no matter what sayang. I know that you will go there and feel bored. But no matter how bored at there, I hope that you really enjoy yourself sayang.
And remember to eat proper meal, proper rest okay? Anything happen at there, try to contact me by using Thailand card. If can, give me a text or call once you reach there. Okay? I hope that you will takecare yourself once you reacher there.

But for now, she still in Singapore. I should treasure her more. Appreciate the time that I spent with her. And I promise myself to make her happy before she leave singapore.  I love you the most my wiffey ♥ Muacks :* And remember that I won't leave you no matter what. Wo ai ni Sweetheart ♥

Love,
Hubby ♥

I'm back!

Hello!! I'm back!! :D After for so long I didn't play blog. Nowdays, we both are busy. So, we don't have time to play blog. But now, I'm free from school already! Yay! Just finished my exam :D Everything was fine in exam. I've already put all my effort in my studies. So, I think that I deserved to get my result on December ! (: Can't wait for the result to come. Hopefully that I pass with fying colours ! :D

And I just know my result for my second year course ! (: I got P&C course :D I really happy on what I've got. I hope that everything went well for my second year ! (: My aiming is to go straigt polytechnic. Got willing. And I hope that I can achieve my dream one day ! (:

Your sincerely,
Ramadhan

' Double date @ USS ♥

Met up wuth shue li and Patrick at vivo city. Then we decided to walk to sentosa as the monorail tickets are kind of expensive and isn't worth it. So we did.. we walked and reached sentosa about 20 mins later.  So wheb we reached . Me and baby bought Annual pass at $88.  Worth it right?  I would say today's weather is a giod weather to go uss. We had great fun.  We tried everything except for the roller coaster which is closed down and the skyride cause too late.  We also ate double double at a restaurant. Nice and fulfilling. . Hahhah !! Super thick chunk!  Took some photos and definitely will go again cause we have annual pass   ♥
Overall great and tiring day today !♥