' Stay on strong ❤

Have anybody went through the similar obstacles like me ? And I wonder how they actually went through It . There was many time that I burst into Tears. I hate all the obstacles that I need went through . But things still need to be done . When almost everything was done with planning , things or even human beings come in and destroy . I felt lonely at times . I hate the way people gave me faces . I don't owe any single one of them . I have never disturb their life . I really felt uncomfortable and insecure when people around gave me faces . I hate this . I also felt so suffocating . But at the same time , I can't do anything to fight back what I should deserve . All I could do is to IGNORE . I always quarrel with my boyfriend because of the same old things . I feel more and more pressurized and insecure . I just want to like other happy couples . I want my future with him . But how am I stop all this hating . I don't even know why are they hating me ? What have I done ? I always seems to be the bad person . Why is it so difficult to be a good person ? People tell me I'm too kind that let people stab me from my back . I guess I agree with it. Best friends ? What's that actually ? Are friends reliable? At the end of the day, we still gonna die alone .
My boyfriend told me I used to have a lot of friends but what happen now ? My answer was nothing , the fact is I'm afraid to have friends . I don't know when is the truth and when is a lie . I don't know and I can't bother so much . My life still
Have to go on . At the end of the day , what will I get ? Basically not much .
I have been tolerating all nonsense and all the hurtful things that people said to me . It's enough . I lived on for nobody else but for myself and all I just want to be is to be with all my loved ones .. ❤

Baby I'm sorry that I have been quite emotional nowadays but I really felt insecure. Baby I love you ..❤